In Love & Completely Irrational

Before Nightfalls

2011-08-19T20:32:00.000-07:00

I can´t avoid the fact of sadness, it´s decent to be felt

I yearn for happier days

but my eyes can´t help the rain.

Let my heart rest and heal

forgiveness.

Blue Orchids

2011-08-19T20:05:00.001-07:00

Blue Orchids, a photo by MischaPerich on Flickr.

The blue dame across the bedroom hall

lift a shining, velvet strike

Its the sweetest of them all, she erupts among the whites.

Mes saisons de l'amour

2011-06-30T17:44:00.001-07:00

Mes saisons de l'amour, a photo by Tata Burdeau on Flickr.

Sweet thighs of ruin how I loved her, and I loved her
She muttered low and helped me to her infant breasts
Deliverance was long and strong as God's my witness
Babylon burning sorrow known with each caress

And let the night in
For you were broken
Too ill to touch
Too much.

Drifted : Enter The Void Trailer

2011-06-24T19:03:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I feel in a deep hole, blured, dispersed, far from reality

I love the feeling of disengagement, vulnerability

Sometimes I enter The Void.

The Pale B-Sides

2011-06-22T16:46:00.000-07:00

A playlist so sweet. As sweet as June.

Self-Notes

2011-06-22T16:34:00.001-07:00

Untitled, a photo by carlospereira. on Flickr.

El frio nos toca a todos por igual, solo que algunos tienen como cubrirse y otros no.

Mostly EMO-TIONS

2011-06-22T09:38:00.000-07:00

Problem Queen

2011-06-21T18:49:00.000-07:00

Undertow

2011-06-20T17:21:00.001-07:00

Undertow , a photo by MischaPerich on Flickr.

“There is in every one of us, even those who seem to be most moderate, a type of desire that is terrible, wild, and lawless.

Plato.

Predicament

2011-06-20T12:57:00.001-07:00

mischa-o-matic4, a photo by MischaPerich on Flickr.

And so as you preached, your love was gone. Quick as Venom, Quick as a Drug.

Deeper

2011-06-17T19:36:00.001-07:00

Deeper, a photo by MischaPerich on Flickr.

I wish I could go Beyond. Take you by the hand, unfold you.

Sometimes

2011-06-17T12:52:00.001-07:00

Heil S., a photo by Arkaitse on Flickr.

I believe he works through me.

Deprivation

2011-06-16T20:27:00.001-07:00

Untitled, a photo by MissMinx on Flickr.

Nobody said it was going to be easy. When i enrolled in this play I knew I was going to get deprived from certain feelings. Either way I jumped into it careless.

Broken Windows

2011-06-15T21:43:00.001-07:00

Mariam Before Weddin', a photo by Lui h on Flickr.

There´s a fragile, thin line between words and feelings. They are conected by a string, pulling one another back and forth.
Silence will only make it worse.

Me tiene que doler

2011-06-14T20:55:00.001-07:00

Untitled, a photo by Mariam Sitchinava on Flickr.

El dolor me hace sentir viva. Es la unica manera en que me siento mas humana y menos rigida.

Life in Film

2011-06-13T15:28:00.001-07:00

film, a photo by carlospereira. on Flickr.

I´ve always tried to figure my life as a Film. This way all the crazy things constantly happening to me has an explanation.

This way i can believe its extraordinary and not doomed.

Divan

2011-05-30T21:50:00.001-07:00

Divan, a photo by MischaPerich on Flickr.

I´ve been carried away.

Pieces

2011-05-22T21:13:00.001-07:00

Untitled, a photo by Mariam Sitchinava on Flickr.

There´s a point in the game where you just wake up one day without wanting it anymore.

You just don't want it in you, it reaps apart from your limbs, you want to vomit it all over the room.

At that point, there´s no turning back.

Everything turns black.

Sunday Mornings

2011-05-15T17:06:00.001-07:00

Sunday Mornings, a photo by MischaPerich on Flickr.

...Are so empty without you.

Voodoo Dolls

2011-05-11T16:42:00.000-07:00

Pins and needles

im sticking to you.

Still

2011-05-10T19:53:00.000-07:00

There are a few words that can describe such feeling. A void in the core of your body that tingles and shakes your little heart and stumble apart the senses, when someone you love departs.

My Heart is a Hive, it´s melting inside.

Its not vertigo, no, its not vertigo, It´s the sound of complete silence.

The List

2011-04-24T23:18:00.000-07:00

Im making a TO-DO list of the things I want to do with you

In here we never die

2011-04-24T12:48:00.000-07:00

I heard about it in a dream, I wasn´t sure of the reality of things. Somehow it was true.

Saturns Bliss

2011-04-23T18:32:00.000-07:00

I woke up at noon, opened my eyes in pain with the daylight coming through my window.

Photosensitive & weak.

I felt my Heart was aching terribly.

Through the Devil Softly : A Playlist

2011-04-21T21:25:00.001-07:00

Every Third Hour

2011-04-21T21:06:00.000-07:00

From the beginning I knew nothing could go wrong.

But what’s a girls to do, what’s a girl to do?

2010-04-25T14:15:00.000-07:00

And there was reality, after avoiding it for many days, she managed to conceal a very last wish.

Divine reality, the one who can open eyes and guts and spread it all over the room.

And silence. Because after such noises all you want is to remain quiet.

All this horrible realities will find a way to catch you, sometimes in dreams, sometimes at plain sight.

At that point I will be ready and heading towards it.

Undertaker

2010-03-28T19:47:00.000-07:00

If I could grab a moment and repeat it forever

Like in a constant loop over eternity

I might catch fractions of you, a constant dissonance, fading in and out

And the gloom that surround us for being kindly apart would slowly disappear.

Gravity

2010-01-14T18:02:00.000-08:00

There is no air in the room, its just silence and gravity

Among my swan

2010-01-11T20:08:00.000-08:00

All this beautiful things inside of us

Hidden from the light

Awaiting

Speachless

2010-01-07T12:12:00.000-08:00

I sense you want to turn back time

and in a way, i feel this is the perfect timing for us.

2010-01-06T22:17:00.000-08:00

The feal of a touch is fearless

like feathers floathing in the vast air

no reason to collide in anything, anything at all.

Everything is beautiful withing the morning light

and you shine more when you smile than when you`re frown

deep is the path to fallow you, deep as the pool of my feelings for you

I dont remember loving you more or less

all my heart remembers is your hands letting me go

I remember dying in a glimpse

The feel of a touch is fearless

I am fearless, this time, I want it all.

500 songs to make me happy

2010-01-06T11:53:00.000-08:00

I love the way we exchange songs to makes us happy

you gave me 500 reasons to smile today, tomorrow and the months ahead

I heart you strongly, more than ever.

2010-01-04T21:39:00.000-08:00

You come to me, like a crashing wave

you come to me, because you have to

and I cant stop sweating, feeling like the room is out of air

Dreams Within

2009-12-07T13:44:00.000-08:00

He said he´ll come to me only in dreams one day

And I waited for it to happen, waited for him for months, for years

My heart is aging but not myself

The path has been made and so I will live

Last night I couldn´t sleep

but when I fell I saw you standing in a hill into the woods

I walked towards you, at last we finally met.

He touched my face with a glimpse of fingertips, he looked at me deeper than ever

deep into my soul

we smiled and I woke.

Random Princess

2009-11-30T14:20:00.000-08:00

She looses control, her eyes rolls back and forth

she`s anxious to know the meaning of infinity

The answer is complex

not always one wins

not always one bets.

She wants to cry sometimes

Over of the grim of her hair

she`s so melodramatic

Her hopes are lost

poor Random Princess

between the fall and the oblivion

she becomes nothing.

Fall Aside

2009-11-14T19:10:00.000-08:00

All this things that I held for you

Strokes me like a wall

Midwinter crisis and forgotten solstices

`cuse I remember you, I remember you

Touch me from the distance, sweet dark Angel.

Driven by Winter Solstice

2009-11-05T13:28:00.000-08:00

I`m building Labyrinths between us

some with ways to catch me

some with lost paths and closed doors

to get into the way is your duty

my duty is to run

Hunters

2009-10-30T07:46:00.000-07:00

There was something between the silence and the smile of the hunter when the prey decided to give its life to him

You Must

2009-10-28T15:38:00.000-07:00

Learn to lose me

at bitter times.

You Must

Learn to lose me

and understand the fact

that after me

there is nothing.

When it comes

2009-10-27T21:06:00.000-07:00

I believe in the night scape

of the crawling full Moon

I consort all the demons and angels for you

Sheshire Moon Smile

Blooming too soon

Jingles and Wispers of Tamtrums and Strums

Waiting the Moon Shine

Waiting to Whomb

2009-10-26T17:39:00.001-07:00

To hear whatever you wanted to hear

to feel wahetever you wanted to feel

to be whoever you wanted to be

its a long road, spiral down.

Nothing hurts more than a glimpse of you

scared to confront you own realities.

Surrender

2009-10-21T19:40:00.000-07:00

It was getting dark, that day I waited for hours
Inside of me I felt a vortice...

She is Free

2009-10-20T15:45:00.000-07:00

No one can hurt her pure coralline Heart

she speaks in the language of the Pandora Forest Elfs

And her tears, could sunk ships over the border of this world

I dont want to see her broken anymore

no one wants to see a falling princess

Extrange Conviction

2009-10-19T16:45:00.000-07:00

Life in stop-motion

For me life became a trap, impossible to scape from

The Vulnerability of choices and the deadly enchant of nature

made me forget what was it all about.

I could have died in the hands of Wilderness

I fainted and I stopped breathing

I remember entering in the House of the Unknown.

When Habits makes us closer

2009-10-18T19:52:00.000-07:00

Old Ghosts Dissapears

Nocturne in E Minor

2009-10-15T19:30:00.000-07:00

I swear I saw you with all of the intentions to crash into-me.

I Don`t Want to Wake Up

2009-10-14T18:47:00.000-07:00

If its you who Im sleeping with...

Taken By Trees...

2009-10-14T17:25:00.000-07:00

..:::I love the way she sounds::..

I was Set To Fall In

2009-10-14T15:46:00.000-07:00

Me in the center of the universe, unravel

A mind of his own

2009-10-07T20:10:00.000-07:00

"The silent path of a touch is fearless

the skin memorizes the feeling

and interpret it

when the mind asks"

Oblivion

2009-10-07T20:01:00.000-07:00

All this years trying to avoid this horrible realities

and suddenly seeing you, turns my world into peaces

I don`t know what i can save you from

but one thing is certain

you saved me.

100% de las veces

2009-09-30T20:14:00.000-07:00

Siento que el Universo escucha lo que pienso

y las cosas que hace, me asustan.

Right Into-Me

2009-09-30T19:09:00.000-07:00

Im impressed how much you can see

right into-me

bringing me down

hunting my eyes with solemn sorrow

i`m amazed of how life works

Now everyday its beautiful

I want to run right into-you

and when you come

everything spins

kiss my scars my love

tenderly

bring me down.

Mientras duermes

2009-09-23T19:26:00.000-07:00

Yo suelo imaginarme escenarios, posibilidades. Juego con el tiempo cuando este se hace infinito.

Puedo cortar con una espada el aire que se entrecorta entre las cuatro paredes de este cuarto. Y mi vista se prolonga en un elixir de oscuridad dándole cabida a los sueños matutinos.

Pienso en deconstruir enigmas silentes, observando como despunta el día

Tener una conversación coherente cuando no hay cabida para las ideas.

Deslizar los dedos sobre la mesa y callar, porque para entender hay que estar en silencio.

Descubrir nuevos horizontes en el borde del tragaluz y escuchar las gotas de lluvia que caen sobre ella.

Mi visión es un artificio fantástico de duda, sobre el ventanal cae la tarde de verdes espesores y el amarillo de la puerta me recuerda a sentimientos muertos.

With Moderation

2009-09-04T22:40:00.000-07:00

September was cold, and here before my eyes, nature itself brings out the beauty of ourselves

Truth is, in this time of the month again i feel this is the romance of the century.

Our little stories are so tragic, but at the same time so beautiful.

little Games

2009-09-02T17:41:00.000-07:00

Oh, The little games we play
make an important part in his own way
you send me flowers
and I...
Just want more.

Next time we sea each other remind me
to kiss you

I Remember

2009-08-17T15:07:00.000-07:00

I remember floating in my own conciousness, recovering memoirs from the deep
and transforming them into butterflys.

New Dawn Fades

2009-08-08T16:57:00.000-07:00

I get drawn by decadent feelings in an era that want to make us all crazy
dancing shadows bring peace to the unfolded eyes
and new dawn fades.

Deep, Down, Under

2009-08-05T19:53:00.000-07:00

Underwater there`s no violence, only deep thoughts
Weightless moments where silence finds you and give you peace.

A voice that says:

This is the way, step inside.

Pick of the Day : CONTROL

2009-08-02T22:19:00.000-07:00

I loved Joy Division a few years ago, when I first fell in love with the sound of Ian Curtis voice.
Now my love has grown strongly after seing th new film peace created by director Anton Corbijn about the life of Ian, based by a book written by his widow and partner in life Debbie.

I truly recomend everybody to watch this flick, its amazing!

Hello

2009-07-23T13:25:00.000-07:00

Hello extranger, I know who you are
You`re my most beautiful disaster

I Know !

2009-07-22T19:46:00.000-07:00

My lover`s charms

2009-07-20T13:26:00.000-07:00

My lovers charms are in a box beneath my bed

And piece by piece I sherish them, until the end

I steal sometimes a part of them and when I can

I take their hearts.

Forever true

2009-07-19T22:57:00.000-07:00

You lie, lie, lie

I die, die, die

Everyday, every time

All this love is wasted

Wasting of time.

So goodbye little baby

So long & good night

Wishful thinking

2009-07-16T14:28:00.000-07:00

He always knew with what word beging the phrases

My protector was my guillotine.

Nothing came from those lips after some time

My conquistador has set me free.

Is my desire to be a black heart burning brightly

That was my wish.

The Glass House

2009-07-14T21:22:00.000-07:00

I wasn`t sure if to take that road or stay and take a hot bath.

Things appear to hapend in the most extrange ways perhaps.

On the road to the house in the woods: the sun, the moon and everything became so clear.

It was a long journey for me, for been always in this twilight.

But then I saw it, in a mountain, between the woods: The Glass House.

To get there first you have to take 30 steps up, in the shadow of expectation

It was hard to breathe and then the sweetest voice came from the entrance door.

A voice that greet and old friend and invites me to stay, not to leave.

Once inside the Glass House its difficult to tell, if you want to stay forever or get out.

The road to a House in the Woods

2009-07-13T23:16:00.000-07:00

When you came to me and talked about your background floor

I knew, this must be love.

You see, eyes don`t lie, and yours particularly blue and open.

I doubt I`ll ever miss that.

I slurp some wine to pretend I even liked the color.

Truth is what I really liked was picturing me in other circunstances.

We both laugh, and left the room almost instantly.

It was impossible to keep looking at each other in such way.

So ridiculous.

¿ Where was I all of this years ?

Sexuality makes me______________

2009-07-07T05:51:00.001-07:00

I honestly recomend you to listen to this album.
Simbolism of sex, sex and..yeah SEX!

repeat please, repeat again....

2009-07-02T10:20:00.000-07:00

De repente hoy tengo tiempo para pensar en las miles de palabras que dejamos apiladas, sustituidas por miradas repentinas.
Yo quiero devolverme a esa madrugada, a ese momento y enmarcarlo en 35 Mm guardarlo para siempre en mi memoria reflectiva.

Y ponerlo en “repeat”

Oh Oh!

2009-06-30T21:53:00.000-07:00

El truco de una aventura importante es reconocerla inmediatamente apenas nace

El destino se encarga de unir casualidades, se tejen historias increíbles con la seda dulce de la noche

Y los sueños comienzan a mojar conciencias con chaparrones de memorias circunspectas.

Quiero, quiero demaciado, ese es el problema.

El amor y sus maneras sutiles de tortura

2009-06-29T23:15:00.000-07:00

El derecho y el deber son dos cosas totalmente distintas

La diferencia me la enseñaste tu con un par de palabras y una sonrisa inmensa entre los labios.

Después de eso todo y nada.

"Letras, quiero letras"

Just Breathe

2009-06-22T21:31:00.000-07:00

Uno trata de escapar de la realidad de mil maneras

Lo malo es que esta, siempre te encuentra en el momento que menos la esperas.

Yo siento que sigo corriendo buscando un escondite.

La perfecta amalgama que me cubra de la aniquilación, de esa sensación de luces apagadas y sueños rotos.

Quisiera escuchar una palabra dulce

Una que me indique que no estaba equivocada

Que me de una razón para continuar estas historias.

Quisiera romperme en pedazos y convertirme en esporas luminosas, unirme así al universo y permanecer.

"En la distancia los sentimientos agonizan"

A long snake moan

2009-06-21T18:17:00.000-07:00

And I`ve waited long

And I want to come home

And rest my head onto you

Lovely into you

Because dancing with you in a different way was too

Exciting and true.

A shadow of timeless laughter

A ghost in the darkest depth

A long snake moan.

Fragile solstice

2009-06-20T14:16:00.000-07:00

And we spoke, what we both tried to hide

But feelings inside cant be hidden at all

Ripped by angelburst

2009-06-18T15:33:00.000-07:00

Clean your tears black angel

All you can do is wait for a few more deaths

Maybe one day our souls collide

Tired of being forgotten by the universe.

Morning quotes

2009-06-17T05:27:00.000-07:00

Somehow one must learn to let go of certain things
And when we do, wonderful things start to happen.

Metal Heart

2009-06-15T21:15:00.000-07:00

If I had a HeaRt

It would be made off Metal.

The Wall

2009-06-13T18:13:00.000-07:00

I feel this could get worse
There is a wall between us
Built by you.

Happy Bday !

2009-06-09T12:56:00.000-07:00

Happy 46th B-day Johnny Depp

Older and so much better <3

Grrrr

Phoenix

2009-06-06T15:25:00.000-07:00

I need to change. But ¿How can I change?

The world needs to change, in orden to bring a balance between the chaos.

¿What can I do to change?

When there is not smear of consciousness around us anymore.

Inaniel

2009-06-04T12:05:00.000-07:00

¿Since when did this became a question ?

Devendra Banhart

Fragile Tensions

2009-06-02T14:08:00.000-07:00

The worst part, is that it HURTS ...

Cellar Door

2009-05-31T20:09:00.000-07:00

Some people believe every door opens with one key.

The right one.

In my world there are centain doors, that shouldn`t be open
Even when the whispers from the other side call for you.

Xibalba

2009-05-29T08:03:00.000-07:00

Many words can come between us

But your recent silence has left me no choice but to wait for thee

¿ How many lifes have I waited for this moment to arrive ?

This feeling is craving profundly inside , flowing trough my open veins
Vanishing in front of my high hopes.

I feel I`ve been waiting decades for you, feels like we both drank from the tree of life, passing inside and outside death itself, coming back for more. The eternal hunger to conquer.

My conquistador, always conquering.

¿Would you deliver me from bondage ?

Inquisitive

2009-05-26T22:22:00.000-07:00

I wish I could be you, Waiting in the other side of the door, looking throught the glass. Forsaking my eyes.

Living in the elite world has never been easy. Pretending to care, preaparing for the worst, being ready.

I saw myself reflected in that plane window, it was a red eye flight to London. I was so ready to leave smears of you behind, I never knew what love was.

Then I thought: All around me was confusing, I knew that to be with you was a part of a cosmic unfortunate plan. I was so close to the door and then the bed looked nicer with me on top of it, specially with you.

That evening we didn`t talk at all, we just ate and stared to the walls. Hoping to make an efford to confess the way we felt at that moment.

With so many disturbances its so easy to fall

Intergalactic Dream Shoes

2009-05-25T14:33:00.000-07:00

I`ve got a tendency to adore shoes made off latex, indeed !

This pair of Melissa`s were a gift from OVEJA NEGRA DESING.

2009-05-20T14:49:00.000-07:00

¿Qué le pasa al mundo que de pronto dejó de ser humano?

En donde quedo la sombra del desapego, todos quieren hacerme pedazos

Yo solo quiero sobrevivirles y vivo así la mayor parte del tiempo

Quiero gritar corriendo o viceversa, es un mundo lleno de animales salvajes

Viviendo en junglas de concreto, un mundillo tan perverso.

Quiero devorarlo antes de que el me devore a mi.

Necesito retirarme al bosque urgentemente.

¿Who are Y O U ?

2009-05-14T18:13:00.000-07:00

'Who are you?' said the Caterpillar.

This was not an encouraging opening for a conversation. Alice replied, rather shyly, 'I - I hardly know, sir, just at present - at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then.'

'What do you mean by that?' said the Caterpillar sternly. 'Explain yourself!'

'I can't explain myself, I'm afraid, sir' said Alice, 'because I'm not myself, you see.'

'I don't see,' said the Caterpillar.

'I'm afraid I can't put it more clearly,' Alice replied very politely, 'for I can't understand it myself to begin with; and being so many different sizes in a day is very confusing.'

'It isn't,' said the Caterpillar.

'Well, perhaps you haven't found it so yet,' said Alice; 'but when you have to turn into a chrysalis - you will some day, you know - and then after that into a butterfly, I should think you'll feel it a little queer, won't you?'

'Not a bit,' said the Caterpillar.

'Well, perhaps your feelings may be different,' said Alice; 'all I know is, it would feel very queer to me.'

'You!' said the Caterpillar contemptuously. 'Who are you?'

Lewis Carrol`s Alice in Wonderland

Eternos Soñadores

2009-05-11T15:31:00.000-07:00

Es importante saber en que momento dejaste de ser niño

Tener presente lo importante que es soñar

cuando te das cuenta que ya no sueñas como antes.

Lo difícil que es el mundo una vez que formas parte de el.

Lo sabes solo cuando lo vives

Cuando tu corazón realmente lo siente

En ese momento.

Todo lo que siempre quisiste.

Todo lo que anhelaste. Se enfrío.

Breathing City vapors

2009-05-10T00:31:00.000-07:00

Life is full of spinning weels

Every decade remarks a ride

A circle waiting to be completed

When sometimes there is no time to do so

We keep trying to put holes in hapiness

Trying hard not to become simple

Taking steps to acomplish our limits and yet

So scare to face them, and sometimes uncapable to finish

In the end you become an island in the middle of the ocean

Eternal, untouchable, alone

The Thrill

2009-05-09T03:41:00.000-07:00

Im sunk in the big black wood

Im sunk in my own private revolution

I feel the trees breathing, I feel the earth wishing

a nebula behind a dying star

Is a rebirth

Dulces incidencias

2009-05-07T20:32:00.000-07:00

Todos corremos detrás de algo siempre, respondiendo a la cantidad de deseos incautos del diminuto motor acorazado.

Corremos detrás de las estrellas, queremos ser como ellas, y aunque fugases: eternas.
Detrás de los sueños inmortales también corremos, desafiando gravedades volvemos al inicio, al despertar de la conciencia.

Yo no tengo ganas de correr. He corrido mucho durante el transcurso de esta vida y de las otras. Me gustaría mas descansar bajo la sombra de mi propio pensamiento, en la efímera dimensión del tiempo. Y no esperarlo con ganas.

Algunas veces, solo prefiero el silencio.

2009-05-05T15:20:00.000-07:00

Forever Tori

2009-05-04T16:13:00.000-07:00

Tori Amos - Maybe California from David Tsiklauri on Vimeo.

Pecados Diurnos

2009-05-04T15:14:00.000-07:00

Pretendiendo romper paradigmas me contaste que después de algunos años

se te había roto el alma como un papel.

Yo te mire con ganas de escucharte. Sentí la necesidad de saber que tramaba esa cabeza cínica.

Quizás estabas a punto de decirme lo mal que te trate, lo indiferente que fui, lo fríos que fueron esos años.

No quise estar predispuesta para cuando eso pasara, así que moví los labios en señal de ironía.

No pudiste contra eso y me besaste.

Tengo ganas de irme: pensé.

Creo que ya es demasiado tarde.

Abre-te

2009-04-29T15:10:00.000-07:00

Desnudate

…Pero esta vez, quítate la piel. Quiero verte por dentro.

A certain death

2009-04-28T09:14:00.000-07:00

A tumble inside the whom

This feeling is stronger than I thought; just when I felt I was lack of imagination.

My mind playing tricks on me, driven by whispers in the night, taken by trees.

The angst to erase some stories I can not tell, and do tell what wants to get out

I believe in certain death.

Me waiting in the spotlight. Sitting on the midnight sun in the center of the universe.

There is nothing but my silence.

I’m bouncing over the ages; I’m sliding over the mountains

I <3 cupcakes!

2009-04-23T13:27:00.001-07:00

2009-04-22T14:41:00.000-07:00